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Lines from The Darkening of the Light

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They lay in bed together, her face was turned toward the window.  He reached out his hand tou touch her shoulder.  “How could I ever write about this?” he wondered.  “What words could I ever use to describe the softness of your skin, the perfection of your life?"  The darkness of the bedroom around them, where he had slept alone for years but where he now found his best friend lying with him, seemed to whisper bitterly –

"A life that must now slip away into nothingness.”

“I can’t stand it,” he thought, “I can’t stand it, of all the horrifying things I have seen in this world, this is the worst – that God should create a being as exquisitely beautiful as Jennifer only to kill her slowly like this."  He closed his eyes as they filled with tears and unconsciously his fingers tightened on her shoulder, digging in. 

"I cannot lose you,” he whispered desperately.  He heard her laugh.  She turned over and wrapped her arms around him. He could feel her tears on his chest.  “I don’t want to lose me, either.”

The Buffy Diaries 6-26-2017

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10:10 PM 6/26/2017

Buffynicity #1:  Yesterday morning I posted this about Tara-Jennifer, and the fact that I was calling her TJ:

I should also mention there’s another level of redemption involved.  Back in the late 80s I knew a guy named TJ who was a total fake asshole to me.  He actually dosed me with psychedelics once.

Then in tonight’s episode, Giles was talking about the energy he’d given to Dark Willow:

GILES: No, she’s alive. It, uh … the magic she took from me, it-it did what I hoped it would do.
 ANYA: Oh. (getting it) You dosed her.

So that’s a solid Buffynicity.  And it’s something I need to think about related to Tara-Jennifer.  I’m not sure what it means.

Buffynicity #2:  This morning I was putting my “Radio Sunnydale” disc in my car’s player and I noticed that the design on the disc is a big magical pentagram.  Then there was one featured prominently on Willow’s satanic temple.  Furthermore, I was thinking of Kara on  the way to run, who is associated with Mars and fire, and also war, and willow raised this temple with this female demon, wrapped in a snake, and on top was a trident that looked just like the astrological symbol for Neptune – I am associating all this with the Mars/Neptune conjunction that took place last night, because I wound up staying awake for it, and getting a ton of good stuff.  So it all fit together smoothly.  I even see meaning in the date the original temple collapsed, 1932, the year the Nazis won 11 million votes in the German elections, which led to Hitler being appointed chancellor in January 1933.

Buffynicity #3: This one is very minor, but it is true that I was thinking of the country “Paraguay” yesterday, making jokes to myself about it.  Then in episode #1 of season 7 Willow summons a flower from Paraguay.  I’m going to try to remember in more detail what the jokes were, but it was the odd sound of the name and the exotic location that I found funny.  I was thinking of the movie with Richard Dreyfus, “Moon Over Parador”, and wondering if Paraguay was an actual country because I haven’t thought if it in so long.

Buffynicity #4: This weekend I was writing about feeling overwhelmingly powerful energies, and also writing about Chiron which goes retrograde this weekend.  Willow’s conflict at the end was also about overwhelming power and pain of the kind associated with Chiron. 

Weeks ago I would have hesitated to mention this, but my blog is serving its purpose of improving my confidence.

Today went very well at work and when the Moon was sextiling Jupiter at the end of the day I was actually looking forward to being back tomorrow so I can knock out another big project that’s been hanging over my head.  I was also happy because I finally got the title of my old car sent to the insurance company, so I’ll get my big bank deposit from them soon.

Another bizarre synchronicity is that today I got a call from my dentist about an appointment for tomorrow afternoon which I made as a follow-up back in January.  This was wild because it was just yesterday that I started cleaning my broken bite splint with denture cleaner – the timing was perfect to take it back to the dentist and have it fixed. 

The Moon inconjunct Neptune at 4:41 was powerful.  I was listening to the Type O Negative album “Dead Again” for the first time, and I was really blown away by how powerful it is.  I was getting lots of good information from the land of the dead, really powerful stuff which I can’t describe except to say that my hopes for the transit were fulfilled.

So now I’m working up to the Moon inconjunct Pluto in a bit more than an hour.  One interesting resonance is that I’m about to walk out to my car and get the ID number of my Sirius Radio so I can start my free trial. 

There’s lots of crazy aspects tomorrow but I’m too tired to make predictions.  I’m going to work on The Darkening some more.  Now that I have jobs for all the main characters I’m looking forward to getting deep inside all of them.