12:04 PM 6/25/2017  I’m going to do an experiment with my Sunday habits now.  I usually go to the store on Sundays, but it isn’t really necessary, so given this new energy I feel I’m going to mark my place and then go to the store, and when I come back I’ll see if it was really beneficial.

I am working to get “grounded” on weekends, instead of floating in an expansive state when I do get a lot of good information but I never seem to be able to catch up with things I need to do, like reorganize bookshelves and stuff.

3:06 PM 6/25/2017  While the Moon squared Uranus and went VOC I was feeling pretty good.  I didn’t listen to much music at the store, I don’t even think I hung around that long.  I went to Gamestop and found out that after all this time they’re phasing out the Playstation 3, only a few games are coming out this year, sports and stuff.  Maybe the prices will come down on some things I want.  The thing is, I never play my PS3, I just buy cheap, used games in the hope that some day I’ll get time to immerse myself in them again.  But even if I did now, video games mostly suck.  I’m not nearly as excited by them as I was during the 90s.  But something about the astral immersion keeps me fascinated.  Was it a plus or a minus to go shopping then?  Did it help me get grounded to eat lunch there and listen to “One Vision” by Queen again?  It would save me so much time to give that habit up, not to mention money.  But I’ve been through so much there, so many years I’ve been there just about every sunday.  Now I’m on kind of an emotional rollercoaster, tumbling as the Moon trines Chiron in just a few minutes.  Chiron is a major landmark for me now, as I can so easily identify the feeling of Chiron’s activity, a kind of inward pressure, a movement of emotions toward some goal.  I spotted it when I was listening to “Ballad for Dead Friends” when I first got the Buffy TVS soundtrack.  It’s two minutes until the transit, after it peaks I’ll head down to edgewater.  The emotions are intense. 

This process hurts but it may be necessary and necessarily healing for the expansive daydreams I find myself lost in so often.  I have to bring everything down in my life now, find a direction in the physical plane.  Possibly I should just focus on reading Amber Benson’s novels. 

3:14 PM 6/25/2017  Here’s the aspect.  How soon after this moment will I feel collected enough to head to Edgewater?  God damn, that was an intense burst of feeling.  Already I feel more relaxed.  Something is different.

3:33 PM 6/25/2017  I drifted off to sleep for a minute but still even though the surface burning has died down I feel a total confusion in myself and I’m wondering how to get out of this as quickly as I can.  But at least the tension is broken, right with the Chiron transit, and I can just go down to Edgewater and see how that changes my mood.

For good or bad though I know this daydream state is about to ground out, just as Tara-Jennifer promised.

I forgot to mention that after I came back from the store and parked my car a woman with an English accent said good afternoon to me as we passed on the sidewalk.

8:36 PM 6/25/2017  Unwinding at the end of the weekend, Edgewater was fun.  The Moon shifted into Leo and voila, I am in my peak season again.  I could feel it happen.  I’m thinking of this astrological game as surfing now, I’ve got to learn to ride the waves of Chiron aspects, for instance, but spirits are whispering in my ear even as I write this, saying that this confusion won’t last long now. 

Buffynicity #1:  Relatively minor but interesting, as this afternoon I had decided to cast Allyson Hannigan as Becky, Jennifer’s friend in The Darkening of the Light.  Then I got to see “Dark Willow” and it was very charming because I could see her with black hair and a more serious demeanor, perfect for my story – even the black veins in her skin could be something Becky would put on at Halloween or just going to a show.

So season six is coming to an end, probably tomorrow night, and today I was playing “Lucky” by Bif Naked, thinking of that moment in season 4 when Buffy was making out with Parker.  It turned out so badly for her but I was still caught up in the nostalgic sweep of the music.  So I have major “history” with Buffy now.  I guess that’s a hint that I have major history with Tara-Jennifer too.  I don’t mind not having too much Buffynicity tonight because I’m still reeling from meeting an actual “Jennifer” on Saturday.  It’s a different order of Buffynicity to have this person, who has nothing to do with me, somehow representing a synchronicity so powerful.  It’s going to change all my relationships.

Buffy is clearing up a lot of nonsense I had in my mind, collapsing a lot of quantum wave forms around entertainment.  And Tara-Jennifer has done something I’ve been needing done to me for over ten years – kicked my ass to make me start actually writing.  I have some stuff for a new scene for TDOTL which I am going to write in just a moment, after I make predictions for tomorrow and the coming week.

And by the way I am having “harder” flashbacks of World War Two than ever, finding myself back in the action with an emotional immediacy I haven’t felt in years.  I’m very glad because it means whatever karma from that war that held me in this semi-delusional lifetime in this filthy, failed century is almost complete.

Mars is trining Neptune early in the morning and I think that’s why I feel so powerful and focused now, like I’m getting things done.  I have both of those in the 9th house, Mars in Sagittarius and Neptune in Scorpio.  It all seems to be coming together. 

I’m predicting tomorrow will go pretty smoothly for me, with a huge project out of the way and plenty of time to get the next one swinging, when the Moon sextiles Jupiter at 3:44 PM it will mark the end of a productive day of great clarity about what I’m doing in the world.  The Lunar inconjunct with Neptune at 4:41 will probably take place while I’m shopping for cool stuff for which I will have plenty of money, and listening to awesome music.  Maybe I should plan something.

Inconjunct with Pluto at 11:48 will have just a bit to do with the end of season 6, I bet.  Buffy is really cluing me in on the genuine spiritual meaning of entertainment – lifting away 19th and 20th century ideas which no longer apply, helping me adapt to the world as it is, giving me some insights into my own feelings … but freeing me to see it as “mere entertainment” and apply my subtle senses to higher worlds. 

As far as the week ahead, I see Chiron goes retrograde on July 1.  I’m looking forward to that as I have come to have an intimate knowledge of Chiron over the last several weeks.  Something big will happen I think, something about my writing or music.

Now I’m going to work on The Darkening.