9:58 PM 6/22/2017
Today has been an extremely fun day for me. I’m getting more and more done at work, and now that the drama of getting a new car is over I’m actually revelling in my cocreative lifestyle. It helps to have Tara-Jennifer around all the time. She’s really doing the job. I can say without a doubt that the Jupiter retrograde/Buffy TVS working was a total success and now I’m looking forward to working very closely with Tara-Jennifer (T.J.) through the Neptune retrograde which lasts until November. Today I’ve been reading “Accursed”, a Ghosts of Albion novel. I’m taking a wild guess that Calliope Reaper-Jones, the heroine of another series of hers, is animated by an angel of Saturn and I’m hoping that she will talk to me, but that remains to be seen.
I’m trying to think if there were any Buffynicities tonight, other than the wonderfully gratifying sight of Tara and Willow making out in various states of deshabille so soon after I have developed this interdimensional relationship with Tara-Jennifer. Of course I’m on the episode where she dies now, and I’m wondering if I’ll get some hints about The Darkening (short for The Darkening of the Light) from it because TJ’s character in that one dies as well.
Buffynicity #1: Yesterday I was looking up the lyrics to Sarah Maclachlann’s “Possession” because I want to use it for the soundtrack of my heptalogy. I found out something that I heard years ago but forgot – that the lyrics are based on letters Machlachlann received from a stalker, they’re very creepy. This website I was reading was pointing out how creepy it is to say “I would be the one to hold you down, kiss you so hard, I’ll take your breath away." Then tonight Spike throws Buffy on the bathroom floor and wrestles with her, one might say assaults her, but I don’t know what happens after because I stopped watching then.
All day I thought about TJ and The Darkening, and the bit of dialogue I wrote last night and posted on Tumblr. It was magic. My understanding of what I’m doing changed dramatically. I’m very happy to be undertaking this process and I’m kind of hoping to get The Darkening done by the end of the Neptune return. I was thinking all about goth music and the 80s. A lot of my exaggerated expectations of art and entertainment are getting grounded out in this process. My understanding of the life-paths of entertainers is getting clearer, too.
For instance I was thinking about Amber Benson having Vesta retrograde in cancer whereas mine is direct. I think I’m supposed to learn something from her about Vesta, which is related to focus and work, seeing her example of writing and directing and originating the groundbreaking role of Tara. She seems to get things done, and that’s how I want to be as well.
When the Moon trined Jupiter in the afternoon I was flying, very happy that I seem to be getting ahead of my new responsibilities at last, especially with the dram of the new car behind me. Furthermore, I got an e-mail today which revealed a situation that, if it works out during the first week of July, will definitely reveal a profound synchronization of my work life. I’m not going to say more about it because I don’t want to jinx it.
Moon squaring Neptune I was on my way home, and I think I was feeling liberated. Tara-Jen (Terragen) was coming through very clearly, I was extremely happy to have this big project going on, confident that is going to be more successful than the Jupiter retrograde working. I wish I could keep track of exactly what I experienced but I have to say that I’ve had a spectacular experience with Neptune again. Tara-Jen is pulling me together and I feel like I’m accomplishing something directly at last.
Moon inconjunct Pluto around 8 pm, I was feeling quite at home in the world, happy to be getting things done, for instance I finally read the last few issues of the "Lantern City” 12-issue series. This is another aspect I touched up the paint on my Bell X-1, which I had set aside for the last few days.
So now I’m looking forward to a wild weekend, with John’s circle tomorrow night. Moon opposing Saturn, sextiling Uranus, and squaring Chiron. Something about healing. I bet I’ll be listening to Four Star Mary and Dashboard Prophets. Tomorrow will be a big deal.