Tomorrow should be exciting, I’m working at a remote location all by myself so I can enjoy the Moon sextiling Neptune in peace.

Another state for me to write about is the “Neptune” state, where telepathic information comes to me with a kind of shimmering, “gold-plated” color and seems to involve a parallel life I’m leading in another world.  I think the color of these states is very similar to the colors I associate with Genvieve, who has been revealing herself quite a bit more lately, showing me how completely stable a presence she has been through my entire life, even though my inner world seemed to change so dramatically.

Moon squaring Mercury and conjunct Pluto, I might hope to have something interesting to say.  I’ll have more time to think, anyway. 

This weekend will be my first relatively un-busy weekend in a while, with only a ritual on Saturday evening.  I’ll be able to collect my thoughts then I hope. 

Building momentum on Friday with Moon trining Jupiter, then sextiling Mercury, Uranus, and Saturn.  Should be a very positive day.

Moon enters Pisces on Saturday.  It conjuncts Neptune on Sunday morning at 3:23.  Maybe I’ll stay awake and cast a spell to acquire Juliet Landau. 

Three conjuncts on Sunday – Moon-Neptune, Mercury-Uranus, Moon-Chiron.  All about visions and change and communication.  I should have my website up by then, I’ll be working on some articles for it.

This reading tonight (if it happens) will be my first full-length since I did nine short ones at the last Chi! Ka! Go! and hit a new plateau of seriousness.  Last night’s circle was very encouraging, so as I write this I’m pretty excited about the possibilities.  I may write part four of this tonight. 

Remembering a synchronicity from two weeks ago, I was at Graham Crackers Comics and I saw a little girl with a black knitted winter hood that had a skull on it, and then I turned around to see the “Silver Banshee” issue of Supergirl that had first gotten me into that comic years before.  It was in the box, someone had picked through and left it showing in there. I hadn’t seen it in years, so I bought it. 

Now back to today, I was at Graham Crackers again and they didn’t have anything from my subscription so I went through the 50 cent bin and found issue 3 of “Ray Bradbury Comics”.  I bought it just because it was him.

Then, my mind filled with images of war after, listening to Motorhead’s 1916, I went to Dice Dojo and the room was full of three dozen people.  This is relatively common but the unusual thing about this was that about twenty of the men there were standing up in the center of the room, and one of the clerks was shouting to be heard some commands for the tournament taking place, so it was rather like an army.

I got home and ran, I only had half an hour because of the circle so I finished the witch hunt episode, “Gingerbread" with a minute to spare.

Buffynicity: There was lots of fire again in this episode.  Ironically Cordelia, who I have already identified with Kara, puts out the fire with a "storm” from a firehose.

Buffynicity: In "The Wish" I identified the “Matrix” elements with concentration camps, which at the time didn’t seem completely right, but more like something to be explored.  “Gingerbread” moves from the camp metaphor back to the Nazi “witch hunts” which can be seen as a “pogrom” or anti-jewish persecution, since Willow is jewish – and “Hansel and Gretel” is a german fairy tale.  Giles even casts a spell in German. 

 Also in the previous episode there were three “Bringers” who, in this episode become the three “witches” to be burned at the stake. 

I note for future reference that Hansel and Gretel were male and female halves of the same monster, which reminds me of my speculations over Jody and what would have happened if we had been together.

And in the final synchronicity of the evening, at the circle tonight a friend who is related to someone upon whom James Joyce once based a character spontaneously recited the first verse of one of Edgar Allen Poe’s poems, which ends,

All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

And then John said to him, “It’s like you’re living in a story by Ray Bradbury”.

So afterwards I showed him the Ray Bradbury I had “coincidentally” just purchased that afternoon.

Buffynicity #2: Angel is recalling sins from Dublin in 1838, and this is the day after Saint Patrick’s day.  Furthermore, the episode takes place on a holiday, Christmas, so even though Saint Patrick’s day is not Christmas it’s still similar.  Furthermore I have been thinking about Lemmy Kilmister and Joss Whedon, and looking at their horoscopes I found Saturn in retrograde, and I’ve been wondering (especially in the case of Lemmy) about people who were possibly in a war who “came back” to do something in popular entertainment related to violence.  Both Lemmy and Whedon are eerily consistent in their work, both very powerful in a primal way that can’t be fully explained.  So Saturn retrograde is an interesting thing to think about.

And these thoughts are coming with this other “retrograde”, looking back at “The Matrix” episode of Buffy, having “retrograde” thoughts about that movie.  And Jenny Calendar   is also a major character, and I’ve always thought that name had something to do with the symbolism of time and the planet Saturn in Buffy.

Buffynicity #3: I was at the Chakra Shoppe on Saturday morning to see Sharyl channeling Siria family, and I was looking at runes because all my three angels have Valkyrie names and runes associated with them.  There was a rose quartz set I was looking at, and also a deck of “rune cards”.  I didn’t buy them but in the episode there are three “bringers” casting a spell around a triangle, and the stitiches sewing one of their eyes shut looks just like a rune.  So I noted this as a synchronicity, and also their resemblance to the “air traffic controllers” in the movie Flash Gordon (1980).  Furthermore, I finished that episode and started the next one where some children get killed and someone has put a sigil on their hands.  It looks like a messed up symbol of the element “air”, perhaps an imbalanced mixture of air and water, which is appropriate for the astral images of television.

Then after I ran I went to a group ritual where a couple of the major participants had just gotten “white tattoos” which were very visible and awesome looking.  The ritual was also awesome and I must say that the Moon squaring Neptune was everything I had hoped it would be. 

I’ve got some things to do and then I’ll put up part 3 but for now I’m coming to understand that in writing this blog I have to do two things now:

1. Take better notes on what I’m experiencing as I experience it, so I can

2. Develop a symbolic language for these experiences.  (Hence the references to runes and writing in the Buffynicities.) 

For instance, I need to talk about the particular depth of trance I went to today, and I also need to talk about the specifics of working with the ghost of Lemmy.  Lemmy is perfect for this because he is so rock fucking solid on the astral plane.  I can tell this is going to be good and straight to the point.

Friday just after the Moon squared Saturn and trined the Sun I picked up my ticket for C2E2.  I was listening to Motorhead a lot and thinking about Lemmy Kilmister, who had Moon conjunct Saturn in the 7th house.  I don’t know what his actual spirit is doing, but the image of him is helping me tremendously, giving me a solid “outer boundary” to my daydreams.  There was a man who was definitely a rock star, definitely a very consistent character in the world’s dream.  I picked up a copy of his album, “1916”, and I was thinking that Saturn retrograde in a chart represents “doing something again” – and Lemmy had Mars and Saturn retrograde, so maybe he was on some kind of dream mission about war … I’m not sure.  Kara is definitely getting results for me in areas where I’ve felt blocked for years and the appearance of Lemmy is part of that.  Lemmy is very real for me and definitely a magic presence for me to understand.  That Mars/Saturn conjunct is so obviously expressed in his public image, it’s giving me some hinds about the structure of the astral plane.  So I’m going to look again at my seventh house this week to see some things about myself.

Moon entered Sagittarius and once again I’m a little unfocused although I feel good.  Sagittarius still counts as the end of my peak astrological season that begins in Leo, but I have some work to do.  Kara is from that sphere –

Here I had to pause because the “inner” presence interrupted me.  I have to come up with a word for this particular type of presence I feel now.  One more thing to work on tonight. 

Skip on to Saturday, I was awake when Mercury conjuncted Venus, on my way to Tracie’s.  I had actually woken up around 5 am, every excited, getting the focus I’ve always wanted.  I’m still having trouble remembering the inner details of these events but blogging is the work of developing the recall, the language.  But Kara and Motorhead were making me very happy, and when I was meditating I felt a merging of a couple of important frames of reference, the one around Saint Germain, and the one around Kara, beginning to come into focus relative to Sri Ram Chandra Mission – like I can see all of them on the same playing field now, and put them all in perspective.  This is Kara’s doing.

After meditating, my phone reminded me of Sharyl at Chakra Works, and I went down there.  Moon inconjuncting Mars was actually a nice experience and the trance I went into was of this particular level of depth I’m hitting so solidly that it’s time to make up language for it.  I asked Siria family about Kara and Saint Germain and I got satisfactory answers about both. 

Does it matter that it was Moon in Sagittarius inconjuncting Mars in Taurus?  Is Moon in Sagittarius especially good for Kara?  Has it been a vague time for me because my understanding of her has been vague? 

Moon-Sag trining Venus-Aries brought a lot of visions but from where I am now it’s too overwhelming to remember all of them, or rather they are on the other side of that risky line of things too specific to talk about. I went to run and the Moon trined Mercury-Aries while I was having several Buffynicities.

Buffynicity #1: The episode I was in the middle of ended with a concentration camp atmosphere, a factory that sucked blood and a big slow-motion finale that recalled “bullet time” from the Matrix, so this episode is obviously “The Matrix” episode and furthermore as I write I understand that “The Matrix” is also a reference to WWII concentration camps.  This is something the Ghost of Lemmy was preparing me for over the last couple of days, showing me the processes at work in Mars and Saturn retrograde – which are related to the Uranus-Saturn opposition represented by Buffy.

How appropriate is it to talk about Joss Whedon’s horoscope, specifically his retrograde Saturn?  I’d never heard of retrograde Saturn influencing the horoscope before I looked him up, but then here’s Lemmy with the same thing.  I have to shift my thinking about entertainment into purely astrological terms.  I can see that if I do this enough, hopefully I won’t need to talk about entertainment at all.

On to part 2 with the other Buffynicities.