Alas, another day without Buffy, as it was Friday and I had Friday night things to do.  Is this a first since I started watching over a month ago?  However I put half down on a cute Willow action figure at Quake Toys. 

This morning Moon inconjunct Uranus and trine Chiron in the afternoon worked out much as expected.  I was very telepathic and I continued to listen to Motorhead and resolve very old emotional issues about rock music and past life karma.  I also listened to “Symphony of Destruction” by Megadeth.  I’m still struggling somewhat between two worlds, because the spirit world I see is very bright and clear, very three dimensional, but there’s still very little for me to say about it.  Kara was coming through loud and clear, resolving issues, and I still feel that I’m being haunted by Lemmy Kilmister.  Is it the actual guy? Or is it just the symbolism of his Saturn/Mars conjunct in the 7th house of relationships?  I don’t know but Lemmy is like Kara in that answers come through when he’s around.  I’m resolving quite a bit of ambiguity around music and the entertainment business so I would have to say he counts as a spirit guide for me.  And I love his music.  

I’m resolving a lot of the mental conflicts I have about occultism and psychology, about what power is and what obedience is supposed to be.  Lemmy is helping me tell the human race to go fuck itself.  There’s a whole lot of people on this planet I don’t need to be involved with and I should feel lucky I’ll never have to give a damn what anyone thinks. 

A presence swept through me then.  I saw a lot of images.

When the Sun squared Saturn and trined the Moon I was looking at action figures, specifically that cool Willow one and a couple of others who will make cool characters in the photo novels I’m writing.  There went another wave of energy, but maybe I’m just tired.  I bought a bunch of cool stuff and then I went to eat at Red Robin.  Lemmy was hanging out with me, showing me stuff about the entertainment business.  I took some notes.  

When I got home I swept the floor because one of my housemates wants to mop tomorrow.    I meditated and then the moon went into Sagittarius at 10 pm so I imagine I’ll feel bold and positive about it.

I’m soooo tired I’m going to bed almost immediately. 

Via con dios, world.

Awesome Buffynicities abounding.  Tonight was Anya’s first episode.  At first, I was thinking that Anya might be Irish because her magical pendant is Green, but I guess not.  Still that was a cool thing two days before Saint Patrick’s Day. But the real thing is this:

Anyanka is an ancient female demon, and this episode is a totally “Matrix” episode – Matrix meaning “Mother” and being related to the sphere of Saturn, mother of the waters, and the action movie which has been in the news for the last couple of days, related to Cordelia’s impalement.

Cordelia was also burning old pictures in a fire at the beginning of the episode, recalling the fire from previous episodes.

Because of the Matrix references yesterday I was willing to accept the dark “false reality” and the leather-clad “alternate personalities” as a major Matrix reference.  (Alyson Hanigan is totally hot as a vampire, btw).  Also the Master sitting in a Morpheus chair, which I had been thinking about in great detail today, especially on the way home during the Mars/Mercury aspects.  But then I finished running and stopped right when the Master was announcing his adoption of “mass production” techniques and that nailed it shut because the Matrix referred to Baudrillard and the concept of “simulation” which is directly related to consumer products.  So this is really a totally Matrixed-out episode which was made years before “Matrix: Revolutions” when the impalement happened, and I think even a year before the first movie.  Someone in the episode was even joking about all the leather.

There were also a couple of minor phrases that recurred.  Today with all the references to electricity I was thinking about “utilities”, I actually used the word, and it was in the episode. 

The finding of the playlist with Iron Fist only a couple of days after the Glove of Minagon episode was pretty wild.  Furthermore I know I stopped tonight’s episode at the perfect place because when I first got to the club my Body Glove tablet case (I mention that only because of the “Glove” reference) was blocking my headphones from working, which was especially a pain in the ass because I was the only one in the front room so the attendant was playing some dance music extremely loud and I couldn’t hear anything.  it took ten minutes to straighten all that shit out – and I did in fact fix the messed up case right at the same time the attendant got the hint and turned the music down.  So I knew it was “arranged”.

Another Buffynicity was that I was listening to “Iron Horse” on the way to the club and there was a conversation about horses in there.

 All this does raise an issue of “what might have been”, just as the episode is about a Sunnydale where Buffy never lived.  I’ve often felt my life didn’t work out the way it was supposed to. Actually, listening to Motorhead today I was really wondering what life would have ben like if I’d been in a band with Jody.  I was thinking she would have wanted to sing “Overkill”.  What would my life have been if I had recognized Kara sooner?  Was there anyone out there I was supposed to meet that I didn’t?  Who knows?

I do know, however, that Kara is kicking ass.  I mean, this is amazing, that yesterday’s episode would be evoking “Matrix: Revolutions” and then today’s episode would be so totally “Matrixy”, even though they were made before the movies – and at the same time that all these rumours about a Matrix reboot would appear on the web. 

This morning right before the Moon entered Scorpio Kara started rocking out to Motorhead.  I was scanning through old playlists and found that years ago I had stuck two Motorhead songs on one, “Ace of Spades” and “Iron Fist”.  This is a Buffynicity since I was just blogging about the “Glove of Minagon” a couple of days ago, which was both an iron fist and a smokestack.  And then I went back through my other Motorhead looking for things Kara likes.  She’s a big fan.  I posted about it on Twitter and got a couple of likes, which was cool because I could look back at the time to see exactly when it was and check it against the astrology aspects.  So this is a new advancement in timekeeping for me.  It’s pretty cool because I totally forgot to keep track of aspects and Lemmy so obviously came back from the dead just to escort me into the realm of Scorpio Moon.  Thanks, Lemmy!

Buffynicity 2 which I didn’t realize until this morning was that in the episode I watched last night Cordelia fell on a spike and got impaled just like Trinity in The Matrix: Revolutions.  Then, even though I reposted the news that’s just hitting the web about a new Matrix sequel, I didn’t realize until this morning that that is a coincidence – that I would see that scene and then get the news about the sequel on the same day. 

Part of that is because Keanu Reeves was talking about a sequel a couple of weeks ago, and I reposted that too.  But this round of rumors is getting big, being echoed across multiple sites, so it really is a new wave of information starting on the same day I see Cordelia getting impaled.

So that’s two Buffynicities and I haven’t even watched it tonight yet.

Kara continues to surprise me.  I stopped and got a haircut on the way home while the Moon was approaching inconjunct with Mercury and opposition to Mars.  I felt pretty good although I’m very annoyed with work, but I believe Kara is helping me to lower my expectations for this lousy world, even as everything gets more magical.  She’s brought a great deal of consistency to my inner world and blogging is becoming more important, keeping track of all these daydreams I have. 

So right before work let out I felt I was getting a grip on a lot of personal issues.  I realize now that it’s too complicated to write them all, but this is the work of blogging, it will go on over time and I’ll articulate them eventually.  They had a lot to do with Mercury and Mars as they show up in bureaucracy, and I was thinking about how utterly fed up I am with all that.  Specifically I was thinking about when I was in college (the last time I had my weight down where it is now) and how stupid academia seems now, how glad I am to be away from it.  But I made an advancement because I was able to get a handle on this cycle.  I go through this thing where I’m ranting in my mind at how stupid everything is, and then my inner world “breaks” and I fly off into weird fantasies and daydreams.  Because I’m blogging and thinking about blogging all the time now, I was able to remember when I did it this time to write it down. 

I do it every day, I get angry at how idiotic civilization is, and then I think about that for a while, and then I freak out about how cold I’m getting and then something snaps and I’m outside of time, having weird daydreams and mind-wandering. 

But Kara is an ass-kicker and she is really getting results.  She is bringing me out of this loop, and showing me that it’s not necessarily moods that are affected by these aspects, but the deeper content of thoughts and daydreams.

Moon entering Scorpio during the day should be fun.  In the evening inconjuncting Mercury and opposing Mars.

Moon squaring Pluto in the afternoon was not unpleasant at all.  Squares are fun!  I was getting more organized at work and updating my planner and all kinds of stuff like that.  Kara is very communicative and she is resolving a lot of the chaos in my visual imagination that has bothered me for years. I’m getting better telepathically as well, getting away from a lot of the vampiric presences that have been a problem for so long.

I was doing grocery shopping after work when the Moon conjuncted Jupiter.  I was having a great time and listening to “Heartbreak Beat” over and over, studying that song’s energetic resemblance to the films of John Hughes.  I felt I was finally able to understand the astral presence of entertainment and entertainers, finally able to integrate those issues into my energetic understanding of relationships and politics.  This Buffy project is working out.  I wonder if this is also related to the fact that I just set aside the money to buy my ticket for C2E2 on Friday?

The Moon opposing Uranus at 8:05 was also very liberating.  I was zeroing in really well on Kara, and I find myself able to converse with her now.  I’m still assimilating the huge amount of information I got on Sunday but it feels as though she is completely reworking the telepathic framework of my life.  My old life is over and I am becoming something else now.

I was running while the Sun conjuncted Chiron at 9:41.  Cordelia had just fallen through the stairs, I think.  Spike was healed by violence and ran off into the night to torture Drusilla. 

It was interesting how messed up my run was, though.  At first my tablet wouldn’t access data at all and I couldn’t get on Fullscreen.  This also caused me to screw up programming the treadmill so I didn’t have a genuine cardio workout.  And yet Kara was present very forcefully.  The episode was nice but not spectacularly interesting (although I love seeing Spike) so I had plenty of time to think about what Kara is doing to my astral perceptions – namely sharpening them, clarifying them.

Heading toward Moon inconjunct Chiron, not feeling too much.  Looking forward to Moon in Scorpio tomorrow.  Also it’s opposing Mars tomorrow night.

An interesting day, although not as spectacular as some others.  My predictions were accurate, though, and interesting things did happen.  There are multiple levels taking place now and I am learning to navigate them from inside rather than thinking about them from the outside.

Buffynicity #1: After the “Glove” episode with the Living Flame, in tonight’s episode Spike’s hand caught on fire.  I tend to think of myself as Spike for a couple of reasons, one of which is his resemblance to Billy Idol and another is that I do his accent a lot, repeating the lines of the insane angel from the movie “Constantine”.  Also he was a really bad poet and so am I.  And furthermore, last night I added dozens of songs to my “Kara” playlist, and one of them, which I listened to several times today, was “Blow Up the Outside World”, which is my favorite drunkenness song and Spike was very drunk through much of the episode.  So I was thinking the significance of this in general might be that I have to get my old self back, the way Spike does in the episode.

Furthermore, I didn’t realize the “Blow Up…” synchronicity until I had walked most of the way home and was thinking about my blog, which reinforces that blogging is indeed necessary in the development of awareness.  Blogging puts together pieces that might otherwise be missed.

Buffynicity #2: Today I was looking on Ebay, there’s a seller who owes me free shipping on an order, due to a previous order he screwed up and for “some mysterious reason” today I decided to see if he had anything I wanted.  He sells mostly gaming stuff, like D&D modules, and I was looking for a cheap one to snag.  I was thinking about one called “The Standing Stone”, which is about an ancient druidic ruin where there’s lots of undead stuff.  This reminded me of Drusilla because of this play on words I came up with, the dual characters, “Dru Scriver” and “Dru Id”.

Then tonight Giles was taking a trip to a Druid circle.  So not only did I have a foreshadowing of the episode, but it was about “Dru” although Juliet Landau wasn’t in it. 

And there was all kinds of stuff about love and blood and craziness, and I think this applies a lot to what I’m going through with Kara.

The only other thing about the episode was that recently I was comparing Cordelia with Kara and tonight she almost got killed in a way that resembles the demise of Trinity from the Matrix.

And I also made an offer on the D&D module “Pharoah”, which I was interested in years ago, a foreshadowing of the recent Egyptian escapade I’ve been on.

So those are substantial evidence of telepathic contact and precognition.  Now on to the real astrological aspects in Part II.

After work tomorrow the Moon will be conjuncting Jupter, i’ll probably be catching up on shopping but who knows.  I bet something cool will happen, however because we’re heading toward the Moon opposing Uranus and the sun conjuncting Chiron in the evening. 

Looks to be a good weekend with the Moon trining Mercury and squaring Neptune on Saturday night, when I have a group ritual to be involved in.  And then something big when the Moon trines Uranus during John’s circle on Sunday. 

I’m still listening to “Fire Woman” over and over, and also occasionally going back to “All Night Long”, which is going to be fixed forever in my mind now, associated with the weekend I saw “Cool Hand Luke” for the first time in 40 years and fell in love with Juliet Landau. 

The Moon is inconjuncting Neptune in a few minutes and I’m going to keep my entry going until then.  I can feel my inner self reaching through the dimensions, weaving together the two layers of consciousness.  I’m that much closer to the goal.  I’m going to keep writing, even if it doesn’t make sense.  Anyway, here’s the inconjunct, and I’m all caught up with writing for the weekend.  Should be some good stuff tomorrow night.